Dear nana,
If nothings going to happen the least you can do is throw us a thumbs up 👍🏻
Not all days with nana are bright and shiny. She tends to have a good day followed by three bad; mostly hallucinating or in a deep sleep. Though this pattern changes weekly and anything can be expected any day.
Coming over after a good day and expecting another to follow is a high hope which i learned fast. June 2nd we were afraid for nana. When i got to my cousins you could sense the amount she was frightened in her face and voice, having my aunt follow me over only made it more real to me that this was something serious.
The hospice nurse that comes weekly to check on nana had told Lhizz nana said she was afraid. The nurse followed by telling Lhizz we need to be telling nana that we are all okay and we will be, that’s a conversation i don’t think i would like to he having on my days there.
Lhizz is good about asking nana about death and whether it’s something she’s afraid of but i think that is something i’ll let her do herself until necessary or i’m put in the situation but not of my choice.
Seeing how it was a frightful day all we could do was sit with her. Those who know nana know she enjoys for someone to sit beside her and hold her hand which is what the day consisted of.
No one wants a day like this but it’s part of the process. And in the end we were there for her which is what makes her most grateful i’m sure.
Though there will be more days like this the next few posts will be of laughs and love!
Wait to see those that follow (:
-H.
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